Flaw

Once, my friend told me that, when a guy is to perfect to be true, he must have a big flaw, so big to be true. I met someone, don’t get the wrong impression first, I don’t have any interest on him. It just that this guy is so flawless, you would start looking for flaws. Just to see that he’s human enough. I watched his moves everyday, and listened to little words from his mouth that came out so little about him.
You start to wonder, when a guy is this nice and sincere, why is he so.. apa ya.. tertutup.
When he came, everybody around me, was so impressed by him, his determind to learn. Willing to do everything that he could, with a smile, no matter how difficult the task was, a real big help for everybody. He’s.. in popular languages “Gaul”. But, on the contrary, he doesn’t smoke, or drink, and he prays 5 times a day. He certainly now how to dressed up, or dressed down, he wears label without screaming label all over him, mix and match, something hard to find in a guy. In one time chat with him, he told me that he play basketball and he was an MVP at his high school. And did I tell you that he now, working and studying law in an extension class at State University. To good to be true.
When I found out about the phenomenal mistake that he made in his past, my mind viciously came back to the sentences up there. I couldn’t believe it. Phenomenal, is the right word for it. But those flaws were the one that brought him to be the way he is now. A lifetime changing experience, atleast for me, I would never see him the same way again.

I salute you.

back to school

why do i feel like i'm in high school again..
everything that mather back then, mather now..
i'm i travelling back in time?

Save me -Jem

Save me save me save me wooh

I've gotta stop my mind
Working overtime
It's driving me insane
It will not let me live
Always so negative
It's become my enemy

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
Save me ah wooh
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
Save me ah wooh

Why would I think such things
Crazy thoughts have quick wings
Gaining momentum fast
One minute I am fine
The next I've lost my mind
To a fake fantasy
And none of these
Thoughts are real
So why is it that I feel
So cut up and so bad
I need to take control
Coz my mind is on a roll
And it isn't listening to me

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
Save me ah wooh (thinking and thinking)
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
Save me ah wooh (thinking and thinking)

Mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the dumbest of them all
Insecurities keep growing
Wasted energies are flowing
Anger, pain and sadness beckon
Panic sets in in a second
Be aware it's just your mind
And you can stop it anytime

Save me ah ah
save me ah ah
Save me ah wooh (thinking and thinking)
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
Save me ah wooh (thinking and thinking)
Ok so here we go
If it works I'll let you know
One two three I say stop

can i just cry

i can't believe it... he's doing it again. how could he do this.. to us. again and again and again. what did we ever do to you? what do you want us to do?..
Not again.. not to her, not to us.
we're exausted.. you cant just lay there.. and sleep.. and hope that tomorrow it'll go away.
face it.. not expecting everyone to clean up your mess.. be a man.. get up!
it's like you want us to go down with you.. just lay there... not solving anything.. waiting to die.

just a ride -jem

Life, it's ever so strange
It's so full of change
Think that you've worked it out
Then BANG
Right out of the blue
Something happens to you
To throw you off course
And then you
Breakdown
Yeah you breakdown
Well don't you breakdown
Listen to me

Because
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
No need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up
Sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
Don't be scared
Don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
But don't forget it's just a ride

Truth, we don't wanna hear
It's too much to take
Don't like to feel out of control
So we make our plans
Ten times a day
And when they don't go
Our way we
Breakdown
Yeah we breakdown
Well don't you breakdown
Listen to me

Because
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
No need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up
Sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
Don't be scared
Don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
But don't forget it's just a ride
Slowly, oh so very slowly
Except that
There's no getting off
So live it, just gotta go with it
Coz this ride's, never gonna stop

Breakdown
Don't you breakdown
No need to breakdown
No need at all
Because

It's just a ride, it's just a ride
No need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you all around
Sometimes you're up
Sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
Don't be scared now
Dry your eyes
It may feel so real inside
But don't forget enjoy the ride